Catullus, if you’re
anything
like me,
the hate you felt mixed with
your love
was more a result of your own poisonous
thinking than any action or word or
injustice committed against you.
Imagined betrayals
uncontrollable jealousies
the negation of all you believed to be good
in others
and in yourself.
Your whole word crumbled because you believed
the inferences you made about what
other people were believing
about you and the things you
valued most.
Your shortcoming was not
your loving,
or your hating,
it was your being.
anything
like me,
the hate you felt mixed with
your love
was more a result of your own poisonous
thinking than any action or word or
injustice committed against you.
Imagined betrayals
uncontrollable jealousies
the negation of all you believed to be good
in others
and in yourself.
Your whole word crumbled because you believed
the inferences you made about what
other people were believing
about you and the things you
valued most.
Your shortcoming was not
your loving,
or your hating,
it was your being.